How to Stop Eating Worms
Sometimes, it’s just a bummer of a day.
You don’t know why you are down, but you are. Sometimes you just wake up that way. My Aunt calls it an “Eat Worms” day based on the song, “Nobody likes me, Everybody hates me, Guess I’ll go eat worms…” Today was a bummer “Eat Worms” day.
I just woke up in a blah mood. Four students showed up for the 8 AM Hot Class. I’m sure the beautiful spring weather is to blame and I shouldn’t take it personally…but when you’re eating worms…well, you take it personally. And I know not every yoga class can be the best one…but today I not only felt I wasn’t at the top of my performance as a teacher, I felt like Jar Jar Binks fumbling around the studio. (And nobody likes Jar Jar Binks. People either find him annoying or like him out of pity. Yeah, I felt that bad.) There were moments of grounding when my Jedi senses became aware of the energy in the room and I was able to help the Yogis ground and be in the moment with the pose. But, for the most part, no. I walked out of class feeling lousy.
I then stayed to take the 10 AM Hot Yoga class and spent the first 15 minutes telling my self-critical ego to shut up. (BTW, the teacher for the 10 AM hot class was amazing). It took a bit to switch from beating myself up as a teacher to being a student in the class and soaking in all the teaching experience the teacher had to offer as I was guided through 26 poses.
Lastly, teaching a Hot Class and then taking a Hot Class immediately after and all before noon was probably not a good choice. I was pretty wiped out afterwards from all the heat. This didn’t help my mood.
I know I’m a good teacher. Yogis are always thanking me for a wonderful class and praising my cues and presence in the room…but not today. Hence, those past praises were null and void. And I know all teachers have different styles, but today my style sucked compared to the 10 AM Teacher.
I know you all can feel my pain. I know you have all been there with me, wallowing in the misery. So, what do you do to pull yourself out of the Eat Worms mood?
Yeah. I hear ya.
Truth is, everyone has a different way of pulling themselves out of the dirt. And sometimes, we need to feel the dirt between our toes and in our hair before we decide to pick ourselves up and wash off the yuck.
So, what’s my point? My point is, I was aware of my Eat Worms mood. I was present in the moment and I knew it was going on. I knew that I needed to deal with the emotions in as healthy a way as possible and not drag anyone down with me. No need to be rude to others when eating worms, right? Definitely chew with your mouth closed. No one wants to see that…
Trust me. Not all people are aware when they are having a bad day. Instead they blame it on anyone and everything around them. They are storms walking through their day causing destruction to everyone’s flower garden disposition. You don’t want to be that person.
Being present is always the first step in everything, but especially in healing.
I was conscious that, yeah, taking that class probably added to my down feeling by wilting in the heat another 90 minutes. But I still talked to the teacher afterwards, letting her know how much I enjoyed the class and how much I learned as a fellow teacher. I then smiled at the front desk person, saying goodbye and that I would see her tomorrow morning.
I went home, showered, ate lunch, and meditated in effort to pull myself out of the dreary clouds. I think the only thing you can do to pull yourself out of a bummer day is to nourish your soul. Do what makes you happy and switch the energy.
Cuddling with Ember the Fluff Corgi makes me smile. Setting all the days chores aside to sit and read a book makes me happy. And sitting on the couch with my computer on my lap blogging to all of you wonderful people about my morning of eating worms makes me happy.
I think it’s pretty important to have an arsenal of happy things you can easily pull out when you need to eliminate the blues. No one wants to feel like Jar Jar Binks. Instead, be a Jedi. Jedi’s are always present, self-aware, and know how to deal with dark situations.
The following day was wonderful. The 9 AM Hot class went fantastic. Students walked out happy and glowing. And I felt uplifted and grateful. I used to hate it when I was a kid and adults would say to me, “Tomorrow will be a better day.” But life experience has proven that phrase to be true.
What do you do that nourishes your soul? What makes you happy? Please share with other Yoga Nerds! What nourishes you might spark something in someone else. Share in the comments or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
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